Welcome to December | December 1 2024

One of the things I want to include on this site is some mini game reviews. I recently played through a strange PS1 game called Tail of the Sun. I took a lot of screenshots and I want to make something similar to what Hardcore Gaming did, where I make a little pseudo-playthrough using screenshots. I think that'll be a fun way for me to get back into working on this site. Tail of the Sun is also just a bizarre game that would be fun to talk about.



I'll be traveling here in a few days to Chicago to visit friends. Traveling always makes me nervous. If something goes wrong, I don't have the immidiate comfort of being home... that's what freaks me out most. Granted, every time something did go wrong when I was travelling I always got back home safe and sound in the end.

I didn't always have this aversion to the idea of travelling. I wonder what spurred it? I don't really have a particular traumatic memory from a trip. I think it's mostly from when I became an adult, I got nervous at the idea of doing things alone. What if I screw up royally somehow, and it's my fault? Thank God for my anxiety meds.

I'm slowly getting back into the swing of art. This will be my month, I'm sure of it. Even if I won't be able to work on anything for about a week.

Oops. | December 31 2024

Oops.

It's been a very weird month, even more so that the previous few. I'm currently writing this on New Years Eve, so I guess this is a good time to sit back and reflect. I even got good reflection music playing in the background-- a playlist that's become something of an anthem for the past few years. Here it is.

My trip to Chicago was fantastic, easily the highlight of this year. It was great to see friends, and I got to do things I've never done before. I'm keeping things vague, but with context clues you could probably figure out what I was doing there lol. But it was a great time, and I got *really* depressed when I got home. Like, out of commission for over a week depressed. I didn't have the energy to work on art, or much of anything. I just played the Binding of Isaac. Speaking of, I've gotten really into that game again.

Christmas was fine. I didn't enjoy it as much as I thought I was going to, I guess I just wasn't in the right headspace this month. I really don't have much to say about it. Which is a shame, because I really like Christmas.

And now it's New Years, where it's expected you to reflect on the year and make a speech and all that. Truth be told, this was a rough year for me. Good things happened, certainly, but it was a year plagued with anxiety and redundency and constant existential crises. I'm depressed. My meds are helping, at least.

I'm grateful for my friends and family who were there for me despite this tough year. As sad as I can get, at least I know I have people there for me. I truly am thankful for that. I don't know what the next year will bring, but it's a genuine comfort knowing that I won't face it alone.

This was a very, very rambly entry. But I feel like I said what I want to say. It was a shitty month except for one absolutely wonderful week and an alright couple of days. I don't want to end this on a downer note, so I will say whoever reads this: I hope you have a great 2025 and overcome and challenges you might face. Peace out, bless. Happy New Year.