Woof | February 1 2025
Today I saw Wolf Man with my dad. It was pretty good, I think it was a tight 90 minutes, feels good to see a movie that's nice and compact. That's all I have to say about it lol.
Been listening to a lot of hyperpop lately. It's a genre I'm a bit embarassed to be listening to and I probably wouldn't put it on with others around, but I just like imagining my own little music videos playing alongside them. Music genres are hard to define, because I'll listen to one song I really love and when I try to find more like it they never quite scratch that itch. This song has been stuck in my head for the past few days, I like it a lot. This game seems really cool too, looking forward to it.
I've still been playing a lot of UFO 50, I'm about halfway through with my in-depth playthroughs of the games. Some I got really invested, some were easy skips. I think it's time to move on though, I got other games to play on my Steam backlog and I could easily spend another 100 hours on this game, or more. I'll finish up that neat cowboy RPG though.
Cowboys and Conspiracies | February 2 2025
I actually went grocery shopping today. Feels good to actually have food in my fridge, and the confidence in knowing I have my meals planned out for the week.My UFO 50 arc is gonna take a break because I got to move on to some other games I need to play. I decided to finish it off by completing Grimstone, the cowboy themed RPG. I really liked it, as someone who enjoys retro RPGs. The cowboy setting was fun and exploring and following up on rumors pays off. My playtime on that game alone was 14 hours, which is even longer than the FF1 pixel remaster. It's not going to be for everyone but anybody who loves old-ass JRPGs will like it.
I also finished Psychopomp. (specifically Psychopomp Gold. Psychopomp Gold is the version with extra levels and is also not free) I really loved it, it's going to be a game I'm going to be thinking about from time to time. Some people may not vibe with how incomprehensible the writing is at points (and, dare I say, a bit pretentious!) but I loved it. The concept of going to going to underground labrynths under public buildings and finding all sorts of bizarre conspiracies is a lot of fun. Gave me a few spooks, too. Definitely check it out if you love weird games.
Another week. I'm feeling pretty good though, maybe because I actually have food to eat. Sometimes I feel paranoid about looking forward to things. What if I'm wrong? What if I have a terrible week and feel silly for even having high hopes? Maybe it's better to not think. To have no expectations. Take everything at face value. It must be so easy to not think this way.
Fun and Fancy Free | February 3 2025
I drew this today. It's Vi! She's thinking about her boyfriend.
Working Up the Ladder | February 4 2025
I don't really like talking about work stuff. I knew someone a while back who would constantly vent about their job to the point where it was their whole personality, and that made me not want to ever discuss work. I like my job, the people I work with, and the company I work for. That's all I really want to say, cause what I do for a living is not who I am, and I don't want to be identified as such.Analogue horror stuff isn't always my cup of tea. Some of it is a bit too cheesy or formulaic for my liking. However I do appreciate the artistry behind it, especially with works such as the Waltan Files, Lacy Flash Games, and Doctor Nowhere's videos. Similar to Yume Nikki fangames, I appreciate analogue horror being an avenue for someone to show off their art in a unique format. If it's just distorted faces and VHS noises, it doesn't really interest me as much.
Here's a WIP of a drawing I'm working on. I like the posing here, it's something I'm trying to get better at. It's hard to use pose refs sometimes when I draw characters with larger frames, but I make it work.
dasak;lg';';;;;;;; | February 5 2025
I'm very sleepy. I didn't have the energy to draw today cause I was very tired and cranky all day. Tomorrow I have to put gas in my car, and just the thought of doing that is exhausting. Things are so hard.I need to get the brake pads on my car replaced. I have a doctor's appointment next month. My car needs to get buffed. I have some mail to drop off in my apartment's office. I need to check on the cats at my parents' house on Friday. I need to draw something for Valentine's day. I told someone I want to draw their character. I should play this new game. I haven't watched Star Trek in a while.
It's all so exhausting.
15-Love | February 6 2025
Week's already almost over, huh. I feel good this evening. I got like 10 hours of sleep last night so I'm feeling pretty good. Small chores no longer seem insurmountable.
I've been watching this series on Youtube covering a massive Youtube video iceberg. Iceberg videos are my guilty pleasure, they're perfect for putting on in the background while playing games or drawing or doing chores, as long as the narrator isn't obnoxious. Sometimes I'll learn about some obscure piece of trivia from my favorite games/shows, or some bizarre rabbit hole I never heard of. Are they slop? Maybe a little. But I go out of my way to avoid the really sloppy ones that are made by someone who obviously doesn't care about the material they're covering.
Here's that June tennis pic I finished. I really like how this one came out. My art mood has improved rapidly, I'm feeling good.
A Callout to Little Caesars | February 6 2025
Everytime I don't feel like making food and try Little Caesars they're always super slammed. What the hell???This week was a lot better than last week. Things are going pretty good.
Are you fucking kidding me | February 26 2025
Seriously? The last entry was on the 6th??? I could've sworn it was only a couple weeks. On the bright side, this is pretty good confirmation that a lack of journaling can cause a month to spiral out of control pretty quick.
Not to say that it was a bad month... it was actually pretty decent. However, as per usual, it all started to blend together until it's the 26th and March is in a few days. Granted, February is a short month, but it's important to keep track of every day. So today, during this slow morning at work, I'm going to recap this month.
I've been continuing my Steam backlog. I played a stange visual novel called Critters for Sale. It's an anthology of short surreal stories that share themes of... I'm drawing a blank here, it's been a few weeks since I played it. One of the stories was about the protagonist and their companion travelling through the desert to find a cave full of treasure, only for the companion to murder the protag and take a literal black pill to become an immortal deity who would eventually become MC Ride of Death Grips. No, seriously.
I got really into Stardew Valley for almost a couple weeks. That's still a pretty good game... I have umbridge with the recent "cozy" game trend. They all try way too hard to be "cozy", so I appreciate Stardew Valley for being a bit rough around the edges at points and even having a slight edge to it. Your character can be downright mean in some dialogue choices and you can "kill" your children and get haunted by them. Of course I didn't do any of that, I feel bad when I choose the rude dialogue option in any game I play.
Currently I'm playing through Fear the Spotlight and Hotline Miami. Fear the Spotlight is a PS1-style survival horror where you wander around a scary school and piece together the dark past events. Pretty good so far, not much to say at the moment. Hotline Miami is... well, Hotline Miami. I never actually played it before. I'm only a few levels in, but it's pretty fun. Maybe I'll have more to say about both when I finish them.
Let's talk about art! I did a fun thing for Valentine's day where I asked for character pairings and would randomly select three to draw. They all came out pretty cute. Big fan of this one I did with Bell and Wally.
I also did some "post your character and I'll draw them" doodles. Drawing other people's characters is pretty nervewracking for me, I worry I'm going to get them wrong or the owner isn't going to like them. It doesn't help when the person doesn't even acknowledge it when I draw their character... feels bad. I'll probably do it again in the future, but there's some other things I want to draw first.
What else? General life stuff? I don't want to get too into it here I think, but house stuff. Living situation changes. (positive) Not much to say at the moment.
I think that's all I want to write for now. There's more I could talk about but it's exhausting recapping almost three weeks of life lol. This is a lesson for myself to not slack on journaling. The more days I skip the harder it gets to return.
Caffeine | February 27 2025
I've been getting into those Monster Zero drinks. They've been a great kick for evenings when I want to draw but need a little boost. The grape one is tasty... I wish there was a drink that tasted like it but without all the caffeine.This week has dragged on. Tomorrow is the last day of February. I should get a treat for lunch tomorrow, I think.
