After Party | January 1 2025
Happy New Year once again! I feel a bit better today. When I woke up this morning there were several new years messages from friends, which was pleasant. Today I saw Nosferatu with my dad, since he wanted to go see it. Went in completely blind and had a great time, good movie to start the year with. I think I want to watch more movies this year, especially in theatres. I might get one of those things where you pay a flat monthly rate and get unlimited movies, if it's worth it to see a movie every Saturday. Sneak in some snacks in my cargo shorts... should be a fun time.
I also want to start watching Star Trek TNG. Seems like a weird thing to suddenly want, but I feel like I'd vibe with that slow burn sci-fi.
Some scattered thoughts today. Feeling alright. I want to start working on this website again. I'm pretty proud of it.
Entering Virtual Reality | January 16 2025
Things have been okay. Slow start to this year, I feel like nothing's really changed. The good news is that I know for sure things that are going to happen later this year, so that gives this year "bones" so to say. I'm going to be moving in a few months.The other day I tried VRchat with friends for the first time. I've always been a bit down on VR, always feeling like it's too expensive and nothing more than a gimmick. However, new year, new things to try. So even though I don't have a VR headset, I played VRchat with friends. It was a really fun time, and I decided right then and there to get a proper headset. VRchat isn't the only thing I want it for, there are other games too. I think it'll be fun to try something new.
I want to write more. It's becoming more difficult to formulate my thoughts. Being able to articulate my thoughts and feelings is important if this is to be a proper journal for this year. I should try to update this journal at least every other day...
Anyways, my headset should come in on Saturday. Something to look forward to. Also, season 2 of Severence starts tomorrow as well. It's nice to have a show that me and my parents both enjoy, so I'm looking over to coming over for dinner and to watch it. It's actually been a while since I had a weekly tradition with family. Maybe I need more stuff I can do once a week. It's nice to have things to look forward to.
Snow Day | January 21 2025
It snowed today, which was a surprising thing to wake up to. Usually the freeze warnings here in Texas are pretty exaggerated, but opening my blinds to see my car covered in snow was something. It only snows once ever four or so years where I live. No work today either, so that was a surprise. If only I bought coffee or some hot chocolate when I went to the store the other day... oh well.
This weekend I got to do a lot of VR since my Meta Quest 3 came in. VR is definitely something you need to experience first-hand in order to understand why people go nuts for it. My friends showed me some pretty incredible worlds in VRchat that are greatly enhanced by being in VR, such as this one world called Organism.
That being said, VR has its problems. For one, it's a bit of a hassle getting it set up. The headset isn't the most comfortable, your play area can be a constant problem if you don't have much room in your living space, and messing around with settings and such isn't as novel when you have to do it via your VR controllers. Still though, when you have everything working it's magical. I definitely have to be in the mood for it though. There's still a lot of games I'm excited to try, so it'll be a continuing adventure this year.
Well, after a four day weekend it's still to go back to work. I'm also working on my game backlog. Currently playing Psychopomp Gold. Check it out.
Again and Again | January 22 2025
I want to get back to work on this site. I think I bit off a bit more than I can chew with the character bios. However, I know I can do it.
Continuing to work on my gaming backlog. Along with Psychopomp, I been playing a game called Charlie Murder. It's very Xbox Indie Arcade core, the forgotten beat-em-up in the likes of Castle Crashers or the Scott Pilgrim game. It's okay, I'm not a big fan of beat-em-ups so I can't really judge it critically. Why did I even buy this game? I genuinely don't know. It was a bit strange seeing my save file from 2017 still intact... that was almost 8 years ago. That was two computer ago, I think.
Psychopomp is definitely the more interesting game I'm playing. I played the dev's game, Dream Wild, but it didn't really click with me despite me loving the aesthetic. Whoever Fading Club is composed of, they have excellent art direction in their games.
Picking Up the Pieces | January 31 2025
It's been a rough week. My depression really has been kicking my ass, up to the point where just the idea of eating again is exhausting. I dread the idea that I have to go back to my doctor and ask for a different/strong antidepressant. Even then, meds can only do so much. I was drawing last night and I got so sad and tired I had to stop early.
This month has been pretty messy. There's a lot of things I can cite as to what went wrong...
1) Lack of journaling. The most important part of journaling to me is that it's a way to organize your days. On this day, I did this. I'm looking forward to this. Today, I feel like this. If I let the days blend together, then of course I'm going to blink and it's already the end of the month.
2) No long-term projects. There are larger projects I want to tackle, and the more I put them off the worse I feel. Of course, it's not healthy to tie your mental health to your productivity, but...
3) Terrible diet. I barely cooked anything this month, mostly relying on snack foods and pre-packaged meals to get me through the days. I can't remember the last time I ate a vegetable. That's probably contributing to why I feel terrible.
Next month will be better. I need to get myself back together, and update this journal more often. I'll make it happen.
