Brand Spankin' New | July 1 2025
Yeah yeah yeah, June was a bust. Who cares! Halfway point in the year. Let's make the rest of the year count.Today starts the first day of Art Fight. I've been looking forward to it for a while! Got some WIPs done for four different characters today, and already received some lovely attacks. It's a shame I'm probably not going to have time to Revenge for every attack I get. I really appreciate and love each and every one, and I try to make the clear in each of my comments.
I've been thinking about this post I've seen floating around online the last couple days. I don't have it on hand, but the gist is "make it exist first, then you can worry about perfecting it", in clear reference to art. That's been bouncing around my head. I worry too much about things I make not being good enough, that they end up never existing or never being shown. I'm afraid I'll be seen as a fraud who isn't actually talented... imposter syndrome and all that. That's a lame way of thinking, isn't it?
Only a couple of weeks until my birthday. Bluh. I'm finally at that point where I don't really care anymore. I should still treat myself, of course. I got fun stuff planned this month.
Pizza Party | July 2 2025
...We had pizza at work. Hooray!!!I got four art fight pics done today. I like how they all came out. I'm too lazy to post pics of them here, so if you want to see them... check out my art fight link on the home page!
I think a good rhythm for these is to seperate the sketch + lineart and the color + polish process of the pics into two seperate days. I gotta pace myself so I don't get burnt out. I'm feeling good so far though, seeing a happy message from someone that they loved the pic puts a huge smile on my face. I love making people happy. I wish I had the time + energy to do it more.
4th of July Weekend | July 6 2025
Who the fuck cares about Independence Day? The state of the country is so dire I didn't even see anyone posting that 4kids Sing the National Anthem vid this year. Had a great three-day weekend, spent a lot of time with my dad. Watched a few movies, too. Novacaine and Companion, both excellent Jack Quaid movies. I also watched a movie called the Gorge, which if I had to describe it, felt like 3 different movies smooshed together. But it was pretty alright.
Worked on more Art Fight pics. I think I'm going to try to do two at a time... four is just too much at once. It's been super fun though, the reactions I've got from people I attacked makes it all worth it. Also, for reference... in Art Fight "attacking" means you draw someone's character.
I built a cat tree for Mitzi. She seems to like it, which makes me glad. Here's a pic of her.
Cranky | July 7 2025
Not really in the mood to write tonight. Today was kind of a pain in the ass. Thankfully it was relieved by a yummy dinner and playing Jackbox with friends. Thank God for Vinesauce uploading stream vods right when I need something to melt my brain to an hour before bed. Sometimes life throws your a yummy treat.
Supa | July 10 2025
Thankfully this week has gotten better. I think I should put the day with the date... like for example, it's *Thursday* July 10, 2025. Saw Superman. It was good! I've never really been a big Superman fan growing up but it was a fun movie. I'm glad people who like Superman seem to have gotten the kind of movie they've been wanting for a while.
Been thinking about Hypnospace again. I kind of want to replay it. I have a friend who just finished it and it got me thinking about it all over again. Right now I'm playing the Sims 2... maybe... maybe I like it better than Sims 3? Hard to say. Also Tony Hawk 3+4 came out. Looking forward to playing that.
Nollie | Friday, July 11 2025
There we go. How's that?
We had a gift exchange at work today, part of a "Christmas in July" type thing. Got to wear a Hawaiin shirt and eat surprisingly good Hawaiin BBQ, so that was fun. Walked out with a $25 Whattaburger gift card, which will most certainly be going into their breakfast burgers.
I'm kind of tired so I think I'm going to bed early. Played a little bit of the new Tony Hawk. I'm kind of rusty at it. One of my favorite Youtube channels, Redlyne, uploaded a new episode in his "Exploring Dead Games" series. Highly recommend his videos; he's really entertaining. He's clearly a fan of Suda51 games and incorporates that into his editing style, which I approve of.
Wizard | Sunday, July 13 2025
Today I went to an arcade with some family to celebrate my birthday a day early. The arcade was pinball themed, but had a lot of other usual arcade staples.Pinball machines are weird. They constantly flash lights at you and play sound bits from whatever source material the machine is based off of. There's missions to complete, which usually amount to shooting the ball into certain parts of the table. It's hard to know what the goals actually are because you're too busy watching the ball. Maybe you have to read the instructions printed on the maching first. Oh well, I was doing really well on the Star Trek TNG table. Here's a pic of me absolutely sucking on the Simpsons machine.
Birthday! | Monday, July 14 2025
Today is my birthday! Honestly, it doesn't mean a lot since I have a lot of birthday-related stuff planned this week, so today being specifically my birthday is kind of a footnote. Still though, I got so many wonder messages and kind words from friends. I fucking love my friends.Other than that, I just worked on more Art Fight stuff. I also tried to create a custom neighborhood in the Sims 2. Did you know you could do that? Sims 2 is kind of insane. There's so much stuff in that game that even sort of overshadows Sims 3.
Anyways yeah, happy birthday to me! And shoutouts to my friends and family. I'm really lucky to have them.
Whimsy | Tuesday, July 15 2025
Not much to report today. Here's a family I made in the Sims 2.
Remember | Wednesday, July 16 2025
I've been in a weird mood. It's a bit of a depressive funk.I saw a post about an artist who passed away. I wasn't friends with them-- I didn't even follow them. But I saw their artwork around every now and then and they were extremely talented and also a seemingly nice person. The OP of the post, the artist's friend, said something along the lines of "I hope they're painting Heaven with their creativity."
The past few years, I've wrestled with my fear of dying. I've come to grips with it a bit, but what's been eating away at me is how I'll be remembered when I die. I want to inspire people and make them smile and have a genuine impact on their lives. Is that selfish of me? I want to be beloved.
I hope they rest in peace, and their friends and family are doing okay. The world is so cruel. I think it's easy to forget how much your funny cartoon animals can have an impact on people.
I have a headache. I think I'm going to bed early.
Catching up | Saturday, July 26 2025
Been a bit! I'm doing good. I got back from my trip to San Francisco on Monday.Of all the major cities I've been to (which is not a ton), San Francisco is probably my favorite. I love the way the city is laid out, hills and all. You can walk almost everywhere (if you don't mind walking) and public transportation is ever present. I saw a little bit of everything in the city, even the seedier parts lol. I don't really have a day-to-day account of my trip, but here's some neat pics I took.
Anyways, besides that, it's been a bluhh week. I could barely get out of bed since my sleep schedule was a bit wrecked from the trip. I've decided to start wrapping up Art Fight by focusing on pics I've been wanting to do for my friends from here on. It's a bit of a bummer that I couldn't attack as much as I did last year... but it's been a busy month. Plus, I'm really happy with all of my Attacks.
Last thing for tonight, Undertale launched a site where you can post a memory of the game along with your name and a portrait. I assume they're going to do a live stream or something where these will appear, which sounds neat. Here's mine! Undertale really does mean a lot to me. I can't imagine where I'd be without it. It's cheesy to say, but in the long run it definitely made me a better person.
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4 | Sunday, July 27 2025
Today I saw the Fantasic 4 movie. It was pretty good, with it and Superman it's nice to have two good super hero movies in the span of a month after not being interested in super hero movies for a while. Plus, next couple weeks I get to look forward to that new Naked Gun movies and Weapons, which is from the director of Barbarian. Good Summer for movies.Other than that, been replaying Abiotic Factor. That game is so addicting. I've never really been interested in other crafting/survival games like Subnautica, but Abiotic Factor really tickles my brain. Maybe I'm just a huge sucker for Half Life's world that I love anything trying to mimic it.
Nutrience | Monday, July 28 2025
Sometimes I think about the friends I wasn't able to keep. Not that we fell off or are on bad terms, but those who I wish I could've gotten to known them better before we drifted apart. I guess it's never too late to rekindle a friendship, but I also don't want to spread myself too thin. I constantly crave attention and validation, but also love being left alone. Funny how that works.I think about my main circle of friends. I feel like we've been drifting apart slowly the past year or so. Again, not on bad terms... but everyone has their own thing they're doing. I'm glad we can still talk and play games every now and then.
Burnt | Tuesday, July 29 2025
Bluughghhghghghghh ghghghhg hghghghghg ghghghghhhhhghhhhghhhhhhhhhI don't know if I need a day to get a bunch of little chores done, or a day where I do nothing at all.
Anyways, today I finished what I think is going to be the last of my Art Fight pics. I'm feeling pretty burnt out. I would have loved to do more, especially Revenge more people, but I'm reaaaally forcing myself to draw at the moment. I need to draw my characters or experiment than draw other people's at the moment. Still though, it's been a great month.
Summer's End | Thursday, July 31 2025
Well not quite yet. But we are at the 2/3rd mark. And good riddance to Summer, as always.It's been a good month. Sure, I wasn't able to do Art Fight as much as I wanted, but I had a great birthday and San Francisco was amazing. I'm feeling good.
My goal for August is still to have the website done by the end of the month. Which means it's time to get cracking. I'm even willing to extended the deadline to the end of September, if need be. Let's make something beautiful.
