Stress | June 1 2025
I'm feeling very stressed tonight. It was supposed to be a nice, relaxing evening... but then I saw a mouse in my apartment. I had to kill it, I felt gross. I need to get the fuck out of here. Only a few more weeks, only a few more weeks...On a positive note, I replayed Deltarune Ch. 1+2 for the upcoming new chapters. Those games are still great, I can't say anything about them that hasn't been said a million times before. I had a smile on my face most of the way through.
I've been listening to Webinar by Dream Corp a lot lately. I've talked about that album before, but I find it very relaxing. I'm currently listening to it as I try to de-stress.
I want to tell my friends I love them more. That's weird though, right? Getting a message from someone saying that they love you? (platonically) Maybe it'll mean a lot to them. Maybe they'll find it really creepy. I need to go to bed.
Worst sleep | June 2 2025
I had the worst sleep I've had in a while last night. I was already feeling stressed because of that mouse, and that stress carried into my sleep. I tossed and turned, had a stomach ache, and whenever I did fall asleep it was those horrible number dreams again. When morning came I felt so stressed that I called out of work. I feel bad for doing that, but I really did feel like absolute garbage and could barely move.Thankfully I'm feeling better. I'm waiting on the 20mg of melatonin I took to kick in and watching Vinesauce watch archived footage of animatronics. You know what? We've had plenty of evil animatronic stories. I want someone to write a story with sentient animatronics where they're fun and friendly. Some of those old ones are really ugly though. Did kids back then also think they were ugly looking?
Finally | June 15 2025
I did it. I finally moved.I'm hoping things will look up for me from here on. I want this to be a good year.
It can't just be me waiting for good things to happen though. I have to take action. Be proactive, have initiative... be willing to learn.
But for now, I'm feeling pretty good lying in a room with actual air conditioning. Living with people who care about me... I deserve this.
Gums | June 17 2025
This morning I had a dentist appointment. I'll spare the gross details, but it wasn't as bad as I was expecting. Whenever I'm at the dentist, I just close my eyes and listen to music, letting the doctor do their thing. Is there anyone who actually makes eye contact with the doctor during their cleaning? That's gotta be so weird.
I've still been watching Star Trek TNG. I've been enjoying it a lot. I don't mean to discredit how well-written and acted it is, but there's just such a comfy novelty to how it looks. These high ranking astronauts talking in what's essentially a futuristic 80's conference room... them fiddling with gadgets that are clearly just plastic bricks with stickers on it... I love it. And it is a very well-written show too. These characters are all great, Data is my personal favorite. I want to live on the Enterprise, even if it seems like that might mean being close to death every week.
Pets | June 18 2025
One of the things I was worried about with moving in with my parents is the pet situation. I have a cat, a skittish lynx point Siamese named Mitzi. My parents have two elderly cats, and two dogs. One of which is named Jolyne (I call her Jojo), the sweetest labrador pitbull mix you'll ever meet. She's a huge brown dog who loves jumping on people even though she's built like a cinder block. Ever since I moved in she's been obsessed with Mitzi, constantly following her around and sniffing her. It's super cute, but Mitzi clearly doesn't like her personal space being intruded on.I'm glad they get along though. I just hope Jojo gets bored of the new cat and leaves her alone more often. Here's a pic of me lying on the couch watching Star Trek this evening. Mitzi was lying next to me while Jojo hovered ominously above sniffing her. I'm somewhere under this chaos.
